Please help me. I beg of you.?

We've been going through a hard month. My mom lost her job and she's having a hard time looking for one. Since then, my parents have been fighting and I am not given any happiness from anything in life. We are now EXTREMELY poor, and we cant get things we want. I dont think we'll even have a Christmas this year. And now, the girl of my life is in love with the wrong guy, my friends are turning against me, and now my parents seem to wish they never had me. Now I dont think even God loves me. I... I just dont know what to do now. I dont know if I should commit suicide or leave my life and go. I dont think God or Jesus wanted me and my family to even BE happy. Please any of you. I feel terrible. A hurtful comment will just make me feel more suicidal. Maybe homicidal. Please. I cant do anything anymore.